This is one of my favorite songs I've written with one of my favorite lines "Starfish daisies in the field of your smile, to let our invitations rewild".
The song came together when I was playing a different song on the piano and my hands fell into the chords from the intro and the song blossomed from there. I think the world of her. When I first saw her it was love at first sight, something I never experienced before--she melted me and I just wanted to know her and be with her. This happened at a time when I was going through a spiritual awakening Autumn of '22. Seeing Yoko and Julian on Twitter was waking me up, I was having deep feelings of connection and love; I was waking up to my past life as John. As the connection grew and as I was going through all these deep feelings, I experienced a miracle, a Tibetan bell rang from my head when I was in bed and the bell rang through my whole body--it felt like every atom was vibrating and it was one of the most intense feelings I ever had; at the time I was feeling love for Yoko and writing and working on songs inspired by the connection and the complicated feelings I was going through and I believe it was a miracle signifying/confirming our soulmate connection, subconscious connection, our love. At the time it was all so heavy.
Anna's art and videos, her goodness, always made me relax and feel comfortable while I was dealing with the heaviness I was feeling from waking up to these deep feelings and experiences. I sent her a song, 'Trippy Shoes' Xmas '22. I didn't really know who she was but in early January '23 I realized she played the organ at the Albert Hall, the organ of 9999 pipes and when I realized that was how many holes it takes to fill the Albert Hall I experienced a miracle that reminded me of the Pentecost, I had visions during the heaviest windstorm I ever experienced at home. The wind was so strong it broke our fence gate--I realized then that love at first sight and falling for Anna wasn't coincidence that we are karmically connected and I knew the miracle was a confirmation of my soul. The things I experienced, I came to believe we are soulmates, deeply connected karmically. I love her, but things didn't go well. I had opportunities to tell her everything and I didn't because I wasn't out of my shell, still going through the surfacing of my soul. Not long after I gave her the song 'Trippy Shoes' she posted pictures of herself wearing what I believe are my white shoes from my past life. This song, 'Anna', is about my yearning for her, the way I wish I had communicated better, but also how I reached out to share what happened and how she makes me feel. The connection is true, the experiences are real, and I believe in her as I do in myself. I wish I knew all the answers, I wish we could talk it through. She helped wake me up to my soul and nature and I've written so many songs for her and so much of the surfacing of my soul is how I feel for her. I don't know how exactly it came to be, what set the wheels in motion, all I know is that we're karmically connected. My favorite part of this song is the soundscape in the breakdown to the outro, I strummed the bass without playing a note and it felt like heavy vibrations and hope and yearning and her beauty as a person it became a portrait of how I feel about her and myself and there's London train station noise, and NYC subway noise and that's like the stations of karma. I so wish to know, spiritually understand everything between us. The journey I've been on, things I've experienced, the deep love, the deep heartbreak that led to sorrow and fear about her and our connection, times I feel like moving on, times I feel guilty about thinking that--but, at the end of the day I want her to be happy and I want her to know what I've experienced and that our connection is true and beautiful. I think about her everyday and hope with love and faith we can work out.